Okay so time for a normal post! :D

I'm on the bus to kap now~!
Meeting Iggy, Chern and Jiawei for dinner before love MG :DD

But before I boarded the bus,
an elderly man came up to me and asked for 30¢ XD
Luckily I had 30¢ in coins left in my wallet to give him :P

The feeling of blessing others is so wonderful~!! >///<

Anyways~ My throat's soreness has now spread to my nose.. It's ultra dry and painful, making it hard to breathe DD:

I'm gonna buy some sushi from Cold Storage to eat instead of Macs at kap XD

Omg I just saw a middle aged man in army clothes :O
Never see before =o =

Walking to Macs already~!
ByeBye~!

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Chapter 2:

Today is the day!
Aiko was representing the school team in a long awaited and highly regarded competition.

Aiko: I have to maintain my cool.. There's no allowance for bad sportmanship.. No feelings of anger or sadness.. Just focus on the game..

First game started of splendidly! Aiko was giving her best effort and produced results, however, her game started dropping from there.


Aiko: I-It's okay.. I can pick myself up..!

No clue why, no idea how, but she steadily deproved.


Nao[Younger M cousin] &
Akane[Younger F cousin]: -Claps- It's okay Aiko! You're doing well!

Aiko: -Faces Nao- Don't clap unneccessarily.

Both: -Widens eyes- ...

Aiko: *Wh..What's wrong with me.. All this bullcrap..*

The first game that seemed to have potential, ended with a terrible score.
The second game followed suit.

Aiko lost to her opponent twice in a row.

Moreover, he was just over the middle-age range, you could even consider him as an elderly.

In her third game, her last game, she gave up.

She lost all hope.

Every turn was taken lightly.

And as she was being pulled down by her bad sportsmanship and score, Aiko's mind just had to bring him up.

Aiko: -Takes phone to tweet-
          Why..? Of all times.. This feeling's really crap.. Oh my gosh oh my gosh what the
          crap.. 

She tried to hold in the tears that wanted to fall, because of her shit game.

Because of how angry she is towards her bad spirit.

Because of how heartwrenched she felt thinking of him.


Nao: Yay high five! You're getting better!

Aiko: I missed it, what the crap. Stop it, before I box you.

Nao: -Softly- Tchh.. That's a bit too much isn't it..

Aiko: *Gosh why am I letting my mood go downhill.. I told myself I couldn't be like this! What the crap okay just.. what the crap*


Her ability to hold in her tears have improved. Not one drop fell.

"Smile. Laugh. Smile. And laugh somemore!

At how pathetic you are.

At how ugly you are.

At how miserable you are.

At how lonely you are.

At how mean you are.

At how desperate you are.

At how lousy you are.

Laugh. LAUGH!

Ha.. Hahaha.. HAHAHA!"



// Toilet cubicle, after the competition //

Aiko: -Grins.. Giggles, slowly, softly- Ha..Haha.. Ha.. I'm so dumb.. All your sweet-talk.. I knew they weren't real and asked you to stop but you didn't.. Nor did I stop chatting with you cause I wanted to believe those lies.. And now, I'm suffering the consequences from my stupidity.. Haha.. Ha..

Her tears couldn't stop.

Aiko wiped them off, but they would be quickly replaced by more.

"What's all this?

Why am I crying?

Why am I crying.. alone?

Why am I the only one who cares?

Why.. Oh my goodness.. Why, did I let this further affect my game?"


After witnessing certain events that shook her believe in something called "everlasting mutual love", her own personal one had thinned it ever more.

The complicated Aiko.. Who could have been much simpler..

Trudged out to face reality with a plastered smile that seemed to be fixed on her facial muscles.

Chapter 1:

"People change.

Why. Why do people change?
Why. Why must people change?

I don't want to change.
I really don't.
But what can I do?
After all these that I've been through?
Might not seem like a lot to others, but it is to me.
Now it has affected my personality."


Mom: Aiko. Since 8pm, I told you that you've used enough computer, now what time is it??

Ai: Ya ya.. Near 9..?

Mom: And I told you to at least have ONE hour of revision right?? Now it's near 9pm so when are you planning to do revision??

Ai: -stays silent and suddenly remembers to print worksheets for class-

Mom: - Sits at dining table -

Ai: *shuckks.. I'm screwed..*

Mom: Do you want me to cut off all your wi-fi??

Ai: -Turns to look at Mom-
Thoughts- *Urhh I have dataplan*
Actions- Shakes head a little.

Mom: THEN?? Are you doing anything to stop yourself??

Ai: -Stares at table- ... Ya...

Mom: Okay. So what are you doing?

Ai: ... Nothing...

Mom: HUH? - Frustrated expression showing Aiko she's further screwed- What do you mean by that?! You said you're doing something but nothing?! So what are you doing?!

Ai: ...

Mom: What happened?! Where did the disciplined Aiko before the entrance exams disappear to?? Huh?!

She died.

Mom: You were so disciplined and studied sufficiently for it! What happened?!

She died.

Mom: You even planned your time and slotted in your studies and times to rest and use your laptop!! So why aren't you like that now??


SHE DIED.
Aiko wanted to spit that simple, short, 2 worded phrase onto her mom's face.

But couldn't.

All she could do was stay silent.
And stare at the table, her mom, or glance at the printing status of her worksheets.

Mom: So what are you going to do??

Ai: Thoughts- * JUST TAKE IT. TAKE MY LAPTOP. KEEP IT SAFE WITH YOU AWAY FROM ME. JUST DON'T DESTROY IT BECAUSE IT WAS A PRESENT. CAN? CAN??*
Actions- .... *silence*

Thankfully, her mom got distracted by other matters and left the table.
The worksheets finished printing and Aiko shut down her laptop.

Aiko's mind felt stuffed and heavy.
She can never talk it straight with anyone.
She grew up holding things in cause she learnt that letting out her true emotions were perfectly useless.
Nothing will change if Aiko continued that young, childish way.
Maybe that's why she changed.

Now, Aiko can never cry with anyone around, about ANY of her personal struggles.

This is how the new life of Aiko unfolds.

-End chapter-

SO HI!! I got inspired by Starlight kun and a few other short stories I saw a long time ago, to start writing stuff like this~
I know it's rubbishy and not good.. I GOT B3 FOR ENGLISH O LEVELS SO DON'T BLAME ME DD:

ya kay bye~! ;D

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So today marks the end of holidays and tomorrow marks the start of school.

I'm not too enthusiastic about it DD:
And I'm going to have no breakfast buddy for a few days~
I feel like I've no more firm social support in school.
Everyone I know is just SOMEONE that I recognize.
It sucks hahaha XD

I'm listening to myself now DD:
Sometimes I feel disgusted at myself for listening to my own covers. As if I'm supporting myself.
But thinking of it.. There's really nothing wrong with supporting oneself by myself right?

I mean, I really enjoy singing so very much.
Those few days without my full voice was Hell. Seriously.
It was really painful and lonely not being able to sing the simplest of notes.. I couldn't distract, comfort or brighten myself up by humming some tunes.
It doesn't matter to me if I sound bad to others, cause singing really is a big part of me.

It's the strongest thing holding my cousins and I together.
It's the only thing I can enjoy doing when I have nothing around me.
It's something that I've always done since young. It can never leave me. "Till death do us part"

But I guess we can still sing stuff in Heaven :D If I go there.. ._.

And I listen to myself when I'm by myself or in secrecy. I feel that if I share my covers with everyone I know, I'd be too full of myself and too haughty or something..

Although I did tell some people whom I was prepared and ready to share with >.<
Plus those who found out due to my silly carelessness..

I'm so very tempted to share and tell ny family and all my friends so that I can gain subscribers and likes and more recognition..
But no.
I want to earn it myself.
That's why I don't believe in sub4sub.
I don't want friends and family to sub cause of our relation.
Yeah stuff like that~

Sounds dumb but WHO CARES XP

Okay bye! :D

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Okay, most of my blog posts during this period will most likely include things about my cousins so BEAR WITH IT TEEHEE XD

Yeah so! Today, we all met up around 3pm at Anthony CC's house to slack a bit an d then have dinner, before attending an Aikido session that Anthony CC, Glenn and Ayden attends weekly :D

However this time, Princeton, Donavan and Angel are trying it out as well! As a free trial session XD

Delvina, Amanda and I were just moving around watching them~
I was spazzing over this ultra mega cute little girl OMGGGGG. She was the smallest there and was the only female child attending XD

But... When she faces us, she makes that growling face... BUT IT'S STILL SO CUTE HAHAHAHAHAHA I'M SUCH A PEDOPHILE XD

okay yeah moving on~
I've been watching the Japanese drama <<Veterinarian Dolittle>> with Angel for a few days, but today while I was out, MY DAD WATCHED ALL 9 EPISODES AT ONCE OMG. SO MEAN. HE WATCHED THE DRAMA MY FRIEND LENT ME BY HIMSELF WITHOUT ASKING ME. XD

Oh wells~ I don't really mind but I COULDNT STOP MYSELF FROM WATCHING BITS OF IT. And he was at the last episode already =o =

So yeah I'm currently typing while lying on my bed!
Princeton, Don and Angel are sleeping over at Eric PP'S house! ^^
BE SAFE NAHNAH. :/

Okay then nightnight!! <3<3

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Forget. Wang ji. Wasure.

Is it best to forget everything?
All memories?
Happy, fun, awkward, sad, sweet?

What should I do? >///<

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"I've never felt this way before."

I'm sneezing and feeling sickly DD:

Just had breakfast at Bukit Timah Hawker and Market~!!

So long since I've eaten there due to reconstruction :(

My cousins are at the television playing Wii while I'm being antisocial cause I'm deprived of computer for days~ XD

Random fact!

I am craving for Hello Panda D:

I shall grab some after typing this post!

"When you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you."

I started watching a drama series!

It's in Japanese audio but has English subtitles :DD

Best part is that it's an absolutely touching, sweet and motivating drama on the Veterinary Industry (:

Definitely something I enjoy watching!!

I thank God for my classmate who lent it to me!! :D

"I miss you."

I also started taking notes while watching it

so that I can gain some extra knowledge on various animal diseases (:

Small steps but they may help (:

I shall end off and take some Hello Panda now XD

BYEBYE~!!