Okay so time for a normal post! :D

I'm on the bus to kap now~!
Meeting Iggy, Chern and Jiawei for dinner before love MG :DD

But before I boarded the bus,
an elderly man came up to me and asked for 30¢ XD
Luckily I had 30¢ in coins left in my wallet to give him :P

The feeling of blessing others is so wonderful~!! >///<

Anyways~ My throat's soreness has now spread to my nose.. It's ultra dry and painful, making it hard to breathe DD:

I'm gonna buy some sushi from Cold Storage to eat instead of Macs at kap XD

Omg I just saw a middle aged man in army clothes :O
Never see before =o =

Walking to Macs already~!
ByeBye~!

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Chapter 2:

Today is the day!
Aiko was representing the school team in a long awaited and highly regarded competition.

Aiko: I have to maintain my cool.. There's no allowance for bad sportmanship.. No feelings of anger or sadness.. Just focus on the game..

First game started of splendidly! Aiko was giving her best effort and produced results, however, her game started dropping from there.


Aiko: I-It's okay.. I can pick myself up..!

No clue why, no idea how, but she steadily deproved.


Nao[Younger M cousin] &
Akane[Younger F cousin]: -Claps- It's okay Aiko! You're doing well!

Aiko: -Faces Nao- Don't clap unneccessarily.

Both: -Widens eyes- ...

Aiko: *Wh..What's wrong with me.. All this bullcrap..*

The first game that seemed to have potential, ended with a terrible score.
The second game followed suit.

Aiko lost to her opponent twice in a row.

Moreover, he was just over the middle-age range, you could even consider him as an elderly.

In her third game, her last game, she gave up.

She lost all hope.

Every turn was taken lightly.

And as she was being pulled down by her bad sportsmanship and score, Aiko's mind just had to bring him up.

Aiko: -Takes phone to tweet-
          Why..? Of all times.. This feeling's really crap.. Oh my gosh oh my gosh what the
          crap.. 

She tried to hold in the tears that wanted to fall, because of her shit game.

Because of how angry she is towards her bad spirit.

Because of how heartwrenched she felt thinking of him.


Nao: Yay high five! You're getting better!

Aiko: I missed it, what the crap. Stop it, before I box you.

Nao: -Softly- Tchh.. That's a bit too much isn't it..

Aiko: *Gosh why am I letting my mood go downhill.. I told myself I couldn't be like this! What the crap okay just.. what the crap*


Her ability to hold in her tears have improved. Not one drop fell.

"Smile. Laugh. Smile. And laugh somemore!

At how pathetic you are.

At how ugly you are.

At how miserable you are.

At how lonely you are.

At how mean you are.

At how desperate you are.

At how lousy you are.

Laugh. LAUGH!

Ha.. Hahaha.. HAHAHA!"



// Toilet cubicle, after the competition //

Aiko: -Grins.. Giggles, slowly, softly- Ha..Haha.. Ha.. I'm so dumb.. All your sweet-talk.. I knew they weren't real and asked you to stop but you didn't.. Nor did I stop chatting with you cause I wanted to believe those lies.. And now, I'm suffering the consequences from my stupidity.. Haha.. Ha..

Her tears couldn't stop.

Aiko wiped them off, but they would be quickly replaced by more.

"What's all this?

Why am I crying?

Why am I crying.. alone?

Why am I the only one who cares?

Why.. Oh my goodness.. Why, did I let this further affect my game?"


After witnessing certain events that shook her believe in something called "everlasting mutual love", her own personal one had thinned it ever more.

The complicated Aiko.. Who could have been much simpler..

Trudged out to face reality with a plastered smile that seemed to be fixed on her facial muscles.

Chapter 1:

"People change.

Why. Why do people change?
Why. Why must people change?

I don't want to change.
I really don't.
But what can I do?
After all these that I've been through?
Might not seem like a lot to others, but it is to me.
Now it has affected my personality."


Mom: Aiko. Since 8pm, I told you that you've used enough computer, now what time is it??

Ai: Ya ya.. Near 9..?

Mom: And I told you to at least have ONE hour of revision right?? Now it's near 9pm so when are you planning to do revision??

Ai: -stays silent and suddenly remembers to print worksheets for class-

Mom: - Sits at dining table -

Ai: *shuckks.. I'm screwed..*

Mom: Do you want me to cut off all your wi-fi??

Ai: -Turns to look at Mom-
Thoughts- *Urhh I have dataplan*
Actions- Shakes head a little.

Mom: THEN?? Are you doing anything to stop yourself??

Ai: -Stares at table- ... Ya...

Mom: Okay. So what are you doing?

Ai: ... Nothing...

Mom: HUH? - Frustrated expression showing Aiko she's further screwed- What do you mean by that?! You said you're doing something but nothing?! So what are you doing?!

Ai: ...

Mom: What happened?! Where did the disciplined Aiko before the entrance exams disappear to?? Huh?!

She died.

Mom: You were so disciplined and studied sufficiently for it! What happened?!

She died.

Mom: You even planned your time and slotted in your studies and times to rest and use your laptop!! So why aren't you like that now??


SHE DIED.
Aiko wanted to spit that simple, short, 2 worded phrase onto her mom's face.

But couldn't.

All she could do was stay silent.
And stare at the table, her mom, or glance at the printing status of her worksheets.

Mom: So what are you going to do??

Ai: Thoughts- * JUST TAKE IT. TAKE MY LAPTOP. KEEP IT SAFE WITH YOU AWAY FROM ME. JUST DON'T DESTROY IT BECAUSE IT WAS A PRESENT. CAN? CAN??*
Actions- .... *silence*

Thankfully, her mom got distracted by other matters and left the table.
The worksheets finished printing and Aiko shut down her laptop.

Aiko's mind felt stuffed and heavy.
She can never talk it straight with anyone.
She grew up holding things in cause she learnt that letting out her true emotions were perfectly useless.
Nothing will change if Aiko continued that young, childish way.
Maybe that's why she changed.

Now, Aiko can never cry with anyone around, about ANY of her personal struggles.

This is how the new life of Aiko unfolds.

-End chapter-

SO HI!! I got inspired by Starlight kun and a few other short stories I saw a long time ago, to start writing stuff like this~
I know it's rubbishy and not good.. I GOT B3 FOR ENGLISH O LEVELS SO DON'T BLAME ME DD:

ya kay bye~! ;D

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So today marks the end of holidays and tomorrow marks the start of school.

I'm not too enthusiastic about it DD:
And I'm going to have no breakfast buddy for a few days~
I feel like I've no more firm social support in school.
Everyone I know is just SOMEONE that I recognize.
It sucks hahaha XD

I'm listening to myself now DD:
Sometimes I feel disgusted at myself for listening to my own covers. As if I'm supporting myself.
But thinking of it.. There's really nothing wrong with supporting oneself by myself right?

I mean, I really enjoy singing so very much.
Those few days without my full voice was Hell. Seriously.
It was really painful and lonely not being able to sing the simplest of notes.. I couldn't distract, comfort or brighten myself up by humming some tunes.
It doesn't matter to me if I sound bad to others, cause singing really is a big part of me.

It's the strongest thing holding my cousins and I together.
It's the only thing I can enjoy doing when I have nothing around me.
It's something that I've always done since young. It can never leave me. "Till death do us part"

But I guess we can still sing stuff in Heaven :D If I go there.. ._.

And I listen to myself when I'm by myself or in secrecy. I feel that if I share my covers with everyone I know, I'd be too full of myself and too haughty or something..

Although I did tell some people whom I was prepared and ready to share with >.<
Plus those who found out due to my silly carelessness..

I'm so very tempted to share and tell ny family and all my friends so that I can gain subscribers and likes and more recognition..
But no.
I want to earn it myself.
That's why I don't believe in sub4sub.
I don't want friends and family to sub cause of our relation.
Yeah stuff like that~

Sounds dumb but WHO CARES XP

Okay bye! :D

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Okay, most of my blog posts during this period will most likely include things about my cousins so BEAR WITH IT TEEHEE XD

Yeah so! Today, we all met up around 3pm at Anthony CC's house to slack a bit an d then have dinner, before attending an Aikido session that Anthony CC, Glenn and Ayden attends weekly :D

However this time, Princeton, Donavan and Angel are trying it out as well! As a free trial session XD

Delvina, Amanda and I were just moving around watching them~
I was spazzing over this ultra mega cute little girl OMGGGGG. She was the smallest there and was the only female child attending XD

But... When she faces us, she makes that growling face... BUT IT'S STILL SO CUTE HAHAHAHAHAHA I'M SUCH A PEDOPHILE XD

okay yeah moving on~
I've been watching the Japanese drama <<Veterinarian Dolittle>> with Angel for a few days, but today while I was out, MY DAD WATCHED ALL 9 EPISODES AT ONCE OMG. SO MEAN. HE WATCHED THE DRAMA MY FRIEND LENT ME BY HIMSELF WITHOUT ASKING ME. XD

Oh wells~ I don't really mind but I COULDNT STOP MYSELF FROM WATCHING BITS OF IT. And he was at the last episode already =o =

So yeah I'm currently typing while lying on my bed!
Princeton, Don and Angel are sleeping over at Eric PP'S house! ^^
BE SAFE NAHNAH. :/

Okay then nightnight!! <3<3

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Forget. Wang ji. Wasure.

Is it best to forget everything?
All memories?
Happy, fun, awkward, sad, sweet?

What should I do? >///<

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"I've never felt this way before."

I'm sneezing and feeling sickly DD:

Just had breakfast at Bukit Timah Hawker and Market~!!

So long since I've eaten there due to reconstruction :(

My cousins are at the television playing Wii while I'm being antisocial cause I'm deprived of computer for days~ XD

Random fact!

I am craving for Hello Panda D:

I shall grab some after typing this post!

"When you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you."

I started watching a drama series!

It's in Japanese audio but has English subtitles :DD

Best part is that it's an absolutely touching, sweet and motivating drama on the Veterinary Industry (:

Definitely something I enjoy watching!!

I thank God for my classmate who lent it to me!! :D

"I miss you."

I also started taking notes while watching it

so that I can gain some extra knowledge on various animal diseases (:

Small steps but they may help (:

I shall end off and take some Hello Panda now XD

BYEBYE~!!

Wow.

Like nth even matters.
It hurts.

It hurts because I think of how Im so full of flaws.
It hurts because I think about the many pretty, skinny, not-so-short, fairer girls out there.
It hurts because you were always there for me.
It hurts because I know I took you for granted.
It hurts because I know I was like this to you 3x before.
It hurts because I think, you wont come back to me like I tried to you before.
It hurts because Im.. Im going overseas in 3 years?

I really dont wanna leave. I dont want to I dont I dont I dont I dont.

I really really dont.
It hurts because

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Finally at Chalet!!
But not staying for the night :(
Its supposedly the third day of chaet, but I only managed to come during the night of day 1 and evening of day 3 [which is today :3]




I was studying a bit~
But as usual, I got distracted and started blogging~
But then, I take so long to blog, so now Im already in the car with my mom, sister, grandparents and aunty going off for dessert~ XD



So yeah~
My throbbing headache is back.. Urghh :(
It's making my head feel super tight..
It sucks :/
But anyways~
Byebye!!

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~Kataomoi~ Unrequited Love

I can’t tell you I love you, all I can see is you
Every time our eyes meet, every time I hear your voice
I love you more and my heart aches more
I love you, but it hurts; what do you think of me now?
I see you looking at someone else

You don’t look my way, I can’t make you look my way
There’s no point in thinking about us cuddling and kissing
I know it won’t happen, I know it won’t happen

Can I fall for you?
Am I good enough for you?
I’m powerless to stop this love

Ah, I wish we could be together forever and ever...
I mean it, I really love you

I want to tell you I love you, I want you to look only at me
Whenever I notice you, I can’t look you in the face

It must be so annoying, you must hate me

I hate how I am now, I cry all the time, I’m pathetic
Thanks for worrying about me, but don’t get my hopes up
How come when the night comes, all I can think of is you?
Even though I know it won’t happen, I know it won’t happen

Is it because I’ve fallen for you?

My heart aches
I want to know more about you, touch you
My love expands like a balloon, I wish I could send it floating to you...
I mean it, I really love you

[This is a short rap kinda part (Y)]

No matter where I am or who I’m with
I can’t stop thinking of you, can’t stay away from you
Please, give me courage
When I see you, even the scenery looks brighter
I can’t forget, it won’t go away

Everything is wrapped in this gentle warmth

Can I fall for you?
Am I good enough for you?
I’m powerless to stop this love
Ah, I wish we could be together forever and ever...
I mean it, I really love you

So hi~!

This is WinterFlakesChorus' debut song [But we're singing in Japanese obviously XD]

And it's the song that's playing right now on my blog (:

Kataomoi = Unrequited Love </3

I really love the entire song as a whole~

The melody and the singer's sweet voice!

So I decided to research on the english lyrics and this is what I got (:

I really love the lyrics, now that I fully understand what they mean.

[Other than my own lousy little translations before researching :P

I have over a week to learn this song! >.<

Before recording real quick while PDA are in Malaysia for 3 days >.<

So I'm currently replaying Kataomoi over and over..

HAHAHAHA XD

I had a dream, and in my dream..

One of my primary school female friends, was a guy.

WTPONGS. IKR?!
HAHAHAHA XD

So yeah, I shall listen to Kataomoi and do work~

Byebye~!

Ill :(((

So yes like the title says, I am sick :(
I have fever, sorethroat, real bad headache, neck&back aches and dry eyes...
Thank God I'm not sneezing, if not it would make everything 10x worse >.<
Now I'm on my way to the chalet!
In the car with my daddy and mommy~
The sky outside is a mix of very beautiful colours, giving a cosy feel~
I like the sky's warm hue of orange :D

I'm hungry for dinner~~!!
My headache, neckache and swelled nasal passageway is not helping me.. I don't have the energy to eat..

But oh wells >.<
Ganbari masu!!

I was supposed to help out in the zoo tomorrow, but I emailed my teacher to say I can't make it..
I was supposed to do facepainting for the children! :(

Oh wells D:

Okay then~ Got to go~! Byebye~! (:

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Birthdays and Sleepover~!

So today we celebrated Aunty Wendi's birthday! For the first time as a whole family, 3 generations! :O

And tomorrow is NahNah's birthday~!! So tonight, we're sleeping over at their house~!! For the first time! :O

And we're having PDA over during a sleepover, for the first time!! :O

HAHAHA SO FUN :DD

We've got a line of activities to carry out tomorrow~ Hope everything goes along smoothly~!! (: (:

It's already 2340 and it doesnt feel like it~ XD
Got to wake up by 7am tmr.. So we can make it in time for whatever stuff we're doing tomorrow :O

Byebye and goodnights~!!

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PDA! And choruses~

So today is the second day of my cousins' visit :DD
I woke up at 12.30pm ._.
And they had already gone off to my 4th uncle's house to swim hahaha XD

So I was slacking on my lappy till now~!
ANDANDAND!
I got into WinterFlakes Chorus~!
I mean I'm in a few choruses but most of them are dead and I feel foreign ._.

ANDANDAND!
Starlight kun is the leader~! :D
He's a very friendly and open leader, so the group is pretty fun so far :Di

So far, the only choruses Im in that are active are...
1. Sonata Cafe
2. Good Morning Chorus
3. Orange Blossom Chorus
4. Winter Flakes Chorus

YayyyYayyy~!! <3<3
Oh mann.. If only I were as active and
hyped up towards my work ._.

Going to cut my hairrrr!! Trim trim a bit XD
baibai~!!

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JAF2012, PDA and more!

Good evening!

I shall try to type in proper English for easier google translation for some overseas readers XD

So~ It's actually between afternoon and evening BUT ANYWAYS!
I was listening to Ryodo kun's live performance videos during JAF 2012 :'D

Seriously, he is a Singaporean with an epic voice. His voice always sounds soothing and sweet and suits jazz really well! >.<

He sings both English and Japanese songs by the way :DD
His YT acc is: rockmanrulez with 2 numbers behind that I forgot ._.

Anyways~ For those who have noticed me spamming "PDA PDA PDA" on fb or twitter and here, it's cause my cousins, currently living abroad in the US, are coming back for a one month visit!! :DDD

Their names from eldest to youngest are Princeton, Donavan and Angel, thus the acronym PDA.
Not that electronic device HAHAHAHA XD

So yeah! I have about 6 hours left to do homework.. I forgot about them ._.
And I need to record 2 different sets of Harro/Hawayu chorus lines too!! >.<
Gambarimasu!! >.<

#nowplaying - Back to December by Taylor Swift
ENGLISH SONG?! :O
Yes my sister is playing the disc now, and Swift is the second English vocal artiste that I listen to a lot. Actually, really little compared to japanese music XD

YEAH BYE!!

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Blogshopping..

Hai Im trying out a new blogger app on my phone XD
But I suck at these so everything will probably be in black ink and some boring font..
This week and last were filled with meet ups with BS owners~

OH I JUST PASSED ORCHID COUNTRY CLUB :D I used to mix up "Orchid" and "Orchard" ._.

Okayokay back to the topic~
I just went to Yishun MRT station to pay for wallets preorders~
Wanna see how much I spent so far?
Or whatever I can rmr XD

1. $45 on hoodies and tops
2. $6.50 on hair colouring chalk
3. $13 on a dress
4. $28 on 3 tops
5. $5 on a formal top
6. $27 on wallets
7. $25 on panda bags :DD
8. $11.90 on a cutomized pen
9. $20 on a blanket hoodie
10.$5 on 2pairs of hello kitty earrings :DD
11. Somemore.. But I cant rmr..

Im supposed to be saving.. Especially since I got the jist of my savings taken away.. Hahaha XD

OMG IM IN BUKIT PANJANG ALREADY?! That's fast... o.o
Maybe I just type really slow DD:

So yeah.. I slept for 12 hours..
From 12am-12pm.. Such a pig DD:
But even now[5.30pm].. My eyelids have that painful-and-dry-and-wanna-close feeling..

I've got family bowling training later~ Good for me but I feel weak.. Yet.. I havent gone in so long DD:
My daddy keeps saying: You think you very good already is it?

Noo. Wtpongs. -.-

My cousins are coming back from the US to visit for a month!! :'DD
Omg my posts are really long.
But I paragraph a lot so is it easy to read?
Kay bye!

-My family isn't as wholesome and peaceful as everyone thinks-

#nowplaying The Everlasting Guilty Crown ~ (:

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Mid Sems~!

This was written a few days ago heh heh...

Tomorrow&nbsp;is the last day of Mid Sems for me~!

Yay~! Rejoice!

Now, I'm listening to Happy Synthesizer :D

It's a super upbeat and happy song <3<3

Heard of it quite a while back but never went to hear it~!

Now I'm addicted to it!!

Hahaha!! ^-^

Another song I find really catchy is~~

Romeo&nbsp;and Cinderella!

ロミオとシンデレラ <3<3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7U8wHon7STM

That's a nn chorus cover of R&C (: (:

My friends reading this probably won't click it :P

And my worldwide YT friends probably know of this song already :D

I like Len's shota voice :D

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haihaihai!! Back!!

harlowww (:

I screwed up my AA mid sems today..

Ohmygosh :/

Whywhywhywhywhyyyy :(

I studied mostly the ones that didnt come out much..

Haizz.. Bad choice of studying I guess :/

Oh wells..

I mixed up the bone and the muscle names!!

Like "Temporal" and "Temporalis" =o =

Can you believe it?! :/

Ahh wells~
There's microbio and chemistry coming up..

I'm doing even worse for those..

bleh :/

ANYWAYS!
I was trying to record my cover for love distance long affairrr

and this time, I actually tried planning

various harmonies here and there and bg vocals

In an attemptttt to make it sound less dead cause my low singing is..

and this song is pretty low most of the time XD

But it still doesnt sound nice D:

Ohman I wish I had a talented voice >///<

Ohmyyyy

My aunty who just got discharged from hospital is staying over for the week (:

Then my cousins are visiting from US (:

bad thing is...

I will have practically ZERO chance of recording anything.

Since I do so in secrecy XD

OHMAIGOSHI'MSUPPOSEDTOBESTUDYINGG

As you, or those who read my entries, know,

I've been typing weird stuff.

OMGGGG.

I HAVE STAINED MY BLOGGGG.

Kaykay XD

Yeahhh I wanna snap out of it :(

But it's harddd.

mehmeh but I think I'm emerging from it~!
Nyan~! <3

Yeah I wanna go swimming...

SINGAPORE'S WEATHER.

Is turning desert like.

Day = SCORCHINGGGG hot.

Night = Pretty cold :DDD But I still want the fan heehee~

So yeah I havent had lunch and its 3pm :O

Tea time~!!

Houkago Tea Time!!
K-On!! <3<3<3

Sat I'm having training at the Zoo to prepare myself~

For games facilitation during a kids' event - Zoolympix! XD

And it ends at 2.30pm~

So I'll be heading down to Sentosa to meet my close buds~!

Beachbeachbeachbeachbeach >:DD

Sun, sand and TANNNN WHOOHOO!!

Everytime we go to the beach, it's:

1. Picnic mat. Duh. XD

2. Frisbee!

3. Beach towel to lie on

4. Tanning oil [or not]

5. TANNNN

Did I miss anything out..? o.o

Oh wells anyways!

gtg byeee!!
IM CRAVING FOR MACS.

NOOOOOO DD:

Why? Why, why, why?

Isabelle is tired.

Again.

She's been feeling tired for pretty long.

Sorry I haven't been updating a lot!! >.<

If it even matters, HAHAHA! xD

So today I went with my close buds to MGS' OldSchool building~!!

It's gonna be demolished and rebuilt for housing..

Ahh wells :/

I was pretty bad.

Like, during worship, I just stoned with a tear or two falling.

I don't even know why.

Why, Isabelle, why? O.o

Then, I was super stone in class.

Even my Grp Leader gave up on me.

He actually said it out loud, maybe he thought I didn't catch it.

But it's okay I guess.. It's good that he didn't ask if anything was bothering me.

Cause if he did, what would I say?

Even I don't know.

Maybe I do know, but maybe I'm trying to not know.

I really don't know omg.

Sometimes, the way you tell me stuff..

Makes me feel like

I'm just smth to fill your time, when you're bored.

Like how you said

You're only thinking of going to watch movie cause you're out already anyways.

and it's cause you need to stay out for appt. but actually you dont want to.

What is this? Do I have the right to feel hurt?

I guess not XD

Cause, I should feel happy that you actually thought of asking me (:

That's good enough~

Cause I'm not worth anyone XD

#nowplaying - Eternal Snow