today's thursday. somehow, i feel empty.

So yeah, as the title explains, I feel empty.

The whole day I just..

Felt like my heart was empty.

Like, that which used to be around..

 Is gone.

Even though everything seemed normal,

it really only seemed that way.

In my heart, I could feel it.

What used to happen..

Didn't happen.

Actions that usually came about..

Never did.

Your praises and compliments that sounded sweet.

Seem non-chalent and meaningless now.

I admit, I did ever think that this would happen.

Numerous times.

Cause I was being some terrible s***.

But I guess I wasn't prepared to actually face it.

But oh wells.

I don't deserve anyone.

I'll be going overseas in less than 3 years time, or smth.

I don't wanna dump that someone all alone in army,

while I'm somewhere far far away.

But anyways.

I probably won't have to experience that.

XD

The only guy,

 that I can go out alone with and have fun doing nth.

That I actually really think is cute.

That I actually tell him he's cute.

That I actually tell some others that he is cute.

Seriously, how often do I tell you guys that a guy is cute or hot?

Like.... never -.-

Am I even a girl?

That likes anime and manga too :D

That never gets tired of me. I think. :/

That accepts my nonsense as entertainment. I think.

That I usually buy things for.

That I'm willing to home-deliver food cause he needs to eat!! -.-

That I feel sad over[I think..] when he seems close to anotherrr.. yeah..

LIKE WTPONGS ISABELLE?!

That's being super childish and disgusting!! =o =

And why does it matter to me ARGHHHHHH D:

I just have this heavy feeling whenever I hear smth from somewhere and I think that's jealousy.

Eew Isabelle. You're scary. D:

That I ever considered numerous numerous numerous numerous numerous numerous numerous God-knows-how-many times, whether or not to.. mehmeh >.<

I was kinda not thinking straight much

so I enjoyed my lonely times today.

I even walked home from school today.

Under the rain.

Cause I didnt have an umbrella.

It was.... a bad idea....

I immediately got a headache hahaha XD
KIDS DONT TRY THIS AT HOME.
BUT WAIT. IT DOESNT RAIN AT HOME.

Hahaha funny.

Now it's still really bad gosh.

But it's alright.

I don't mind fainting and entering hospital now x)

For the past month or so,

I've been constantly thinking that I'll have a brain tumor or smth

since I always feel hazy when I get up to fast and have frequent heavy head feelings XD

I think about how I can deliver my final words.

That's one reason why I write in my diary to God (:

So if I die, ppl can read it.

BUT NOW STILL CANNOT LAH.
SO EMBARRASSING HAIYO.

So yeah, peace out~

#nowplaying - Safe and Sound, Taylor Swift <3

Ignore the date there.

Unless you wanna point it out on purpose

to tease or piss me off hahs.

BAIBAI! :DDD