The One, or The Suitables?

Lord, there's still something I'm feeling really lost about.
Is there really something called "The One" for each of us?
What if "The One" for girl A is boy A, but "The One" for boy A is girl B?
And what if girl C already messed up her chance with "The One" for her? Will she be fated to be alone forever? Or end up in unhappy and unfulfilling relationships?

Then again, is there no "The One", but many who are suitable, where only one will click with the other under good conditions?

If there's only "The One".. I think I've messed mine up already.

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Star Project!

EVERYONE AND ANYONE!!
I'M SO ANGRY WITH MYSELF!!

//facepalm
//facetable
//facewall
//flipsmyself

You see.. I was playing Star Project like a happy little girl, because I want the character I'm grooming to become a star to level up..
Then, I realized his dance skills were quite meager and wanted to go for some dance lessons..
BUT THAT MINI-GAME FOR THE DANCE LESSON IS SO HARD!!
THAT ASKCADISGHUDCASVAB MINI-GAME DDD:

I kept re-trying over and over BUT I KEPT FAILING!! DDD:
Until I ran out of energy. Or rather, my star ran out of energy.

//depressed


So yeah I have to wait for his energy to be restored again..
And I'm sad..
AND ANGRY AT MY LOUSY GAME SKILLS D:
Why do I have such pathetic gaming abilities //sobsobs

uwaaaaaaaaa~

Oh wells kay BYE~! :D

Blessed or not?

After going to the Chen Su Lan Methodist Children's Home, my eyes really opened so much more.
It's so many times more real when you go to the place itself and get to know how they operate, instead of knowing the name of that charity organization that your fund raising is going to benefit.

Firstly, I had no idea they have a time table even at the home. That's like going to a second school after school. Times are allocated specifically for studying and playing ._. Despite how tiresome it sounds, its cause they need to maintain order, know where everyone are and prevent any bgr accidents on site as much as they can ^^

Secondly, they cannot access Facebook in the home and their phones are kept away unless they go out ._. //dies

That aside, the home is a place where they can have their own privacy and space, a suitable environment to study and grow in a Christian environment! They have good food and are given all their necessities, plus, get to choose a present of theirs choice for Xmas within a certain budget! ^^

I found myself to be truly blessed, with the amount of freedom I have in time usage and purchasing power (just spent 46 bucks ytd and almost 20 today urgh). I also get easy access to high tech equipment and have more than I need.

I felt like they deserved more than a small computer lab of 12 computers and such.

But then again, these extra stuff are just luxuries. So maybe they're not really lacking. But we just have too much. :P

Well anyways, conclusion for me? I wouldn't want to stay there. No thanks. They have 86 children and youths to care for and cram in. I enjoy life now with my loving and capable family, fun friends and all the blessings I've received. I just need to give more than whatever I'm giving now.

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No More Twitter!

Yeps!
As the title says, I have no more twitter!
Deactivated it once again, and I shall try to make sure I won't reactivate it like I did before >.<
No special reason, just trying to control the number of distractions I have ^^

In the meantime, I'm on my way to Chen Su Lan Methodist Children's Home with my family and paternal granny!
First time ever for all of us! My granny joined us cause she said she has always wanted to go but never got the chance to ((:

Oh good lord I'm so bloated I'm gonna puke if I continue typing in this moving vehicle so bye!!

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Friendly Writing Competition!

So~ Due to boredom~
I just joined the Writer's Cafe community online ^^
Where I can share my amateur writings with others and get feedback to improve!

Also, I just entered my first ever story writing competition today!
'cause it looked interesting, whereby the moderator gives a starter line,

"She/He was standing there with no clothes"

and we have to cook up a story from there :D

I saw the 2 other entries, 1 was kind of plain to me about husband and wife, but the other was captivating and mystical! It made me feel calm and smile when it ended! Sadly, his spelling and grammar aren't as strong as the 1st story I read, making me stumble a little as I read it, but I loved it! There was some symbolism or something..?

I dunno, I'm not very literature..

So here's a bit of what I wrote!

She was standing there without any clothes, panting heavily as she paused for breath.

There was no time to grab what little she had.

There was no other chance for her to break free.

This time, for sure, she will succeed.

A field of daffodils, that could have bloomed ever so radiantly, cruelly scorched dry by Sun's rays, lacking in water, left to die. Slowly.

She must succeed.

And yeah it continues somemore, please do give me some tips or short reviews! >.<
Byebye!!

http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/TsukishimaFuyumi/1093816/

Singing... No wait. What? Voice Acting?

I know that the Story Of Evil series composed and written by Mothy is really popular and that it would be easy to raise awareness of it.
I know that is is due to my lack of popularity that I'm unable to successfully increase other's awareness of our project, "Ojou to Meshitsukai"/"The Princess and Her Servant".

//sad face

I would just like to say... that it takes a lot of effort to voice act, clean the voice samples, mix everything together, get the background music and effects, have the animation done, etc~

Despite all these, my friends don't complain because it's something we all enjoy and have fun together~!

As we put in our happiness and emotions into the end product, we just wish that we can share our best efforts with the rest of the world who are sadly deprived //shot XDD

Do read Nanami's blog review ----> http://kyohakuhime.blogspot.com/2012/12/dream-dubs-story-of-evil-fan-adaptation.html

If you want information that is easy to understand ^^

Thank you!!

New Cover!

Click link below~!

Six Trillion Years & One Night's Story

The song cover which is playing on my blog now but in wayyyyy better quality.
The blog music player is so crappy but oh wells HAHAHA thank God there's one anyways :D

Story of Evil.

A novel based off his own song series, forming the Story of Evil.

-What follows below is directly copied and pasted-

~Chapter 1~

Once upon a time there was a kingdom.

A wise king who built the kingdom in his lifetime was taken with illness and a queen of the sweet voice, who was his wife, ruled the land instead of him. She governed for the betterment of people, rather better than him, and the kingdom enjoyed prosperity. Although her reign continued after his death, she suffered from the same affliction and passed away.

The one left behind was her "only daughter", who was brought up in comfort, having great-flamboyant furniture, a beautiful and fine horse, and a servant who looked like her and was willing to do whatever she wanted. She took her mother's place and reigned over the kingdom. However, her dominion was far from good. She imposed heavy taxes on the people and purged the ones who did not abide by her orders. Gradually people came to call the country as "the kingdom of evil and cruelty" and the princess as "daughter of evil".

 

CHAPTER 2 NEXT TIME UNLESS YOU SEARCH IT UP YOURSELF HAHAHAHA XD

Just kidding, here's the wiki link <3

http://vocaloid.wikia.com/wiki/Story_of_Evil

Go straight to the "Plot Overview" section if you want the summaries of each chapter, like the one above ^
Byeeeee ^^

!~Dream Dubs~!

HAI HAI!
So diregarding my previous ranting posts,
I wanna share that I've joined an amazing group of dubbers who formed "Dream Dubs"~!

Our first project is an English Fan Adaptation of the Story of Evil novels
It is called, "Ojou to Meshitsukai" aka "The Princess and The Servant" ((:
AND NO IT'S NOT A LOVE STORY BETWEEN THE PRINCESS AND HER TRUSTY SERVANT HAHAHAHA XD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DVl9YywhIUs&feature=share&list=PLJYdTJE9zRTh6MuN61ic61XlEM10Q12xR

Click the link to watch and find out!
Be sure to last through the video, cause my personal favourite dubbers are spread throughout the video and I'm sure you'll like 'em too!

*coughcoughLENcoughcoughBLUEGUYCALLEDKAITOcoughcoughKINGcoughcough*

HAHAHAHA.

OH MY GOD ISABELLE HAHAHAHAHA YOU'RE GONNA GET DISMISSED YOU PIECE OF DUCKBUTT HAHAHAHA AT THE RATE YOU'RE GOING WITH PONNING LECTURES AND TUTORIALS AND PRACTICALS AND NOT HANDING IN YOUR PATHETIC WORKSHEETS FOR THIS MODULE YOU'RE ALREADY REPEATING HAHAHA YOU'RE GONNA FAIL INORGANIC CHEM AGAIN AND GET DISMISSED YAYYYYYY!!

And here I am.
Not even studying.
Re-listening to Youtube videos.
Stupid aren't I?

So this is what it feels like to have no motivation.
I feel even worse towards you than I already did before, for what I did during our O level period.
It's my fault you ended up in ITE.
I was supposed to be a good friend and help you all the way.
Cause I'm sure you're definitely worth more than this.
Even Laselle wouldn't be too hard I believe.

I'm the worst.

Dismissal.

Isabelle, nobody really cares so shut up.

I, myself, know the severity of my situation.
I, myself, am very much afraid of the consequences.

But I am SO tired and SO lazy, I don't even seem to be doing anything for my future anymore.

Dismissal from Ngee Ann Poly is very real for me, no matter how much I tell people, everyone takes it as some mosquito flying by.
But its okay because it helps me to laugh it off and feel better.

Then.. yeah!
I continue to not do anything.
I don't see myself being a good vet.
I don't see myself having a good future.
I can't remember how I thought and felt like when I was just 2 years younger and happier.

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♥ Animals ♥

Guess what!!
We got to do Chicken handling today during our Animal Welfare, Behaviour and Handling laboratory period XD

Well, I've got to say..
Chickens do give off quite a stench..
But they're so cute :'D
We learnt and practiced grasping/capturing them with our two hands, before restraining them.
I even carried one of it like a baby AND IT STAYED CALM :'D

Oh but their piles of excrement is oh-so-gross HAHAHA XD
Too bad we aren't allowed to take photos in Animal Lab!
It's to prevent those extreme animal lovers from taking our photos out of context and getting us into trouble of "ill treating" animals ._.

For example, we could be trying out a rat restraining equipment whereby the tail is left hanging outside for the drawing of blood, while the rat is sitting inside a space tight enough so it won't move and twist suddenly which will complicate the drawing of blood.

Then maybe a photo is taken and someone shares it to the public as "ANIMAL ABUSE! RATS KEPT IN TIGHT BOUNDARIES WITHOUT THE RIGHT TO MOVE FREELY! BAN ANIMAL TESTING!" or something silly, you get my point HAHAHA XD

So yeah, I think I enjoy handling birds more than other creatures..?
I mean, I love dogs and fluffy animals or tortoises and fish as pets, but in terms of work, I guess handling birds doesn't give me as much pressure..?

And my class is the first class to draw chicken blood!! Though I didn't try heh heh ^^
But my heart didn't feel as sick as when I thought of drawing the blood of mice and rats..
Maybe cause I could actually properly see the blood vessel of the chicken, unlike the mice and rats >.<

So yeah, join Ngee Ann Polytechnic's Veterinary Bioscience Course[VBS] under The School of Life Science and Chemical Technology[LSCT]!! <3<3<3

AFA '12!

The promised AFA pictures!

Sorry it's not much Dx

 

 

Re-entry stamp for 2nd day :D

First day's stamp was green!

 

 

A new friend's nyan paw and my basket of free give away gummies!

 

 

Loot part #1, Day #1

Rukia's bankai sword and GC posters!! <3

 

 

 

Loot part #2, Day 1

B*RS, Nurarihyon and Shana folders!! <3

 

 

 

S.A.O ALFheim large scale poster!!

Stupid otaku boys being annoying when my sister was taking the photo.

 

 

 

01-Ghost~!! <3

Teito Klein~!!

//awkwardsmileinphoto..

 

 

 

Loot part #1, Day 2!

Teito cushion and Domo cushion!

Anyoen want the Domo cushion? I don't actually want it HAHAHA $10!

 

 

Fortune Arterial folder!!

Erika and Haruna!! :DD

 

 

 

Top Nendoroid Pic - Famous 4 tsundere characters voiced by the same seiyuu!

2nd Nen Pic - VOCALOID~! Miku being silly with Rin laughing XD

Bottom Nen Pic - B*RS!!

Plus 2 EZ-Link card stickers at the left :DD

 

Thats all!!

At first AFA seemed boring, but when I got to know the layout better and where the good shops were, it became fun HAHAHA XD

Procrastination..?

Yeah I said I'll post AFA photos in my next post but oops!
HAHAHAHA XD
I just have something I want to share real quick.

I really thank God for what he has done for me even though I really haven't been putting aside time for him.
Even my nightly Quiet Time sessions have been put on hold for my own selfish reasons.
Despite my selfish human wants and doings, He still is watching over me and my family :'D

So I am on the verge of re-giving up on my Inorganic Chemistry Module then face expulsion from school. Because I really suck at the subject and I refuse to seek help.
Then, my new lecturer who didn't even know I was repeating the module or sucking at it came by and helped me with my worksheet! Step by step!
It's something small but it really touched my heart and opened my eyes ((':
When I returned home to tell my mom, she then told me that she has actually been praying that either I'll gather enough courage to seek help or that a lecturer will come to me personally. So wow :DDD

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Halfway Through (:

So yeah the title basically refers to how I'm almost halfway through the 2nd semester of Year 1(:

 

And I've got so much to do!

 

Seems like I always type about how much I have to do and what I want to do on my blog XD

I guess it helps me to reorganize my thoughts for a little while before I get all messed up again :P

 

So yeah have a few projects on hand right now and they are not making large progress but I'm sure we will do them well! ^^

Then~ Yeah the usual tutorials and practical worksheets that I try to rush and hand in //sobs

I end school early [12pm~1pm] 3/5 of the weekdays so I guess it's not so bad ^^

But I begin and end the week with late timetables [5pm~6pm] D:

 

Oh wells, lecturers and schoolmates have been treating me well so it makes school easier to go through with ^^

Even though I don't return a good enough attitude towards my learning and socializing..

 

Regarding YT, I guess I managed to distance mysself from being too attached to it, so I don't have as many random urges to record something ^^"

This way, I can practice and work on a cover more seriously than having impromptus like I always do ._.

Still in the midst of choosing a song for when I reach 200 subs :'D

But really. It's amazing how I even reached 190+. ;A;

Considering my crappy beginnings, random vlogs and stuff.. sankyuu all ((":

 

I realize I lack photos here ._.

Will upload some in my next entry maybe?

Or should I do it now? ._.

//runsofftograbphonewithphotos

 

-Minutes Later-

My TVs shiny enough to reflect HAHAHA XD

 

That's actually a Men's hoodie btw :DD

 

Okay I'll upload AFA photos in my next post heh heh ^^"

School Drop Out

Why? Why am I so useless?

After all the education and upbringing from MG, I end up so weak like this.

After all the care and love from my family, I return to them useless behaviour.

After all the support and expectations from people around me, I produce such lowly results.

I even have the option to think about dropping out of school, without even holding a basic diploma degree, to start working odd jobs.

What is this Isabelle? What is this?

So useless you can't even hand in worksheets on time cause you don't know how to do them.

So useless you can't even control your floodgates and emotions.

So useless you dropped from being some fakeshit chemistry ace to a total chemistry failure.

So useless how could you even be from MG?!

IM LIKE WTCRAP OKAY? JUST GO AND DIE CAN? WHICH MG GIRL CANT EVEN GET A BASIC DIPLOMA DEGREE?

MY FAMILY IS ALL EXCITED FOR ME TO BECOME SOME VET CAUSE NOW SO MANY PEOPLE KNOW IM IN VET COURSE. AM I SUPPOSED TO BURST THEIR BUBBLE AND EXPECTATIONS NOW?

I don't want my parents and grandparents to be disappointed, since my whole family really is into animals, they're really supportive of me being a vet. I really can't dash their expectations so easily, now that I had given them the idea I'm gonna be a vet since I chose vet course without much thought.

At the end of the day, its all my fault.
I wanna be a vet, but I'm afraid and not working hard for it.

I refuse to seek lecturers for help. I just refuse so badly despite the many times my mother advices me to. I don't know why okay. Its just really really scary cause I dont know HOW to consult. Cause I seem to understand everything in lecture, but when I attempt questions BAMM IM STUPID AGAIN YAYYY!

this really sucks.

I never ever thought of the possibility of me being expelled. And now, its just this close. Its scary.

Great. TMR IS AFA AND IM GONNA HAVE PUFFY EYES WTFREAK. JUST STOP OKAY ISABELLE?! DONT KNOW HOW TO STOP IS IT?! SHIT EVERYTHING AND YOURSELF OKAY?! YOU SHOULD SLAP YOURSELF AND CRUSH YOUR KNUCKLES WITH THE DOOR. MAYBE THE PAIN WILL MAKE YOUR LITTLE BRAIN WORK AGAIN.

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Bad Books.

That's it.

I'm going to train myself a little. Using a weapon for attack and defense.

To be honest, its reeeeally hard to get into my bad books. Its hard to find and spot any annoying or irritating traits in people all around.

But, if you do something that somehow ticks me off, you're screwed.

What ticks me off?

Disrespectful kids my age(like hello? You should be mature enough to know your limits right?)

Very proudly and loudly mean by being superficial and immature. Please learn how to properly judge a person. We all should know by now that no one is perfect. You yourself aren't perfect either, you don't have the right to hurt others through your thoughtless judgements. Period.

I can't really think of more.. but basically if anyone hurts or seems threatening to my friends, like THAT poor poor guy at KAP, you messed with the wrong person.

Of course I didn't do anything to him cause we were in uniform. Urgh. If not, I would've done more than humiliation.

You can hurt me, fine. Don't be a threat to the people around me.

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Random FB Page.. ^^

Etto...

Here's the link to my random FB page for Tsukishima*Miharu ((:
If you're wondering who's that,

she's the one who covered the song playing on my blog yayyy ^^

 

http://www.facebook.com/TsukishimaMiharu

 



Nightmares, Fears & Regrets.

Ano ne, I had a nightmare last night that one of my precious family members died.
The entire dream was a mash up of various parts that don't link :/

Like first, it started off as some competition to see which group can earn the most money.
We were brought to a wallet shop to pick a free wallet to keep the money in.
I remember very clearly that I saw 3 different sunflower designed wallets and I was admiring them *A*

Then the family member die thing. Urgh it was horrible.

Then, a certain interesting friend's friend whom I neither really talked to irl nor actually know much, appeared too.. and I'm like "H-How..? o.o"
Its just some pasts in what people call a love life.
Pshht like who would've thought I would be talking about it one day ha ha ha.

But yeah. I'm sorry to anyone that I shut out before. No matter how sweet it seemed or how moved I was, there are some people around that make a boy-girl (or man-woman) relationship look painful.

It sucks when those people are the ones closest to you.

I feel sick when I think of myself in one.. I feel sad maybe, yes, but I can find things to distract me. Since I'm like some professional self entertainer HAHAHAHA XD

FOREVER AVAILABLE FTW!

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Anchovies.

My life is a lie. Again. D:

So if you all have been following my twitter..
YOU WOULD'VE SEEN THE ENTIRE ANCHOVIES ISSUE I HAD D:
Who would've known anchovies were fish?! Right?! RIGHT?!

-pantpant-
-inhalesdeeply-

Now I remember the moment when we learnt that H2O isn't made of H+ and OH- ions ._.

I proudly announce that I have lost whatever pride I have left  //dejected

-dies and revives-

Hi guys I totally know what anchovies are whoohoo!!
Let's have a party to celebrate the number 12827329 moment of enlightenment!!
(Numbers are fictional)

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Wakaranai.

 

I'm so sleepy now but I'm still using the lappy even though I've got nothing to do :(

So I'm blogging ^^

But honestly speaking, my eyelids are heavy ;A;

 

I switched to BBC knowledge channel and it's showing some documentary on a rural German village's inability to accept that one of their own have done evil and cast the blame onto something that would seem like the evil do-er, which is, an imaginary mystical creature - The Werewolf.

 

Oh goodness this documentary is getting disturbing.

The actual criminal ate the flesh of the woman he killed. DD:

 

Oh. The narrator looks like Dumbledore.

HAHAHAHAHA XD

 

Oh goodness.

The axe he was using to hack wood left blood stains on the chopped firewood.

His son saw it and sensed something was off.

And he, realized his son's suspicion.

 

He brought his son into the woods,

handed him the axe,

and claimed he needed to return nature's call.

 

His son continued walking forth,

repeatedly turning back to face his father,

as if he was afraid of a surprise attack.

And his suspicion was right.

 

His father applied strong impact,

sending his son sprawled across the snow whilst the axe flew out of hand.

The son managed to grab ahold of the weapon and hacked into his father's leg,

triggering greater anger from his father.

 

That was when his father plunged his teeth into his son's neck,

tearing flesh apart.

 

OH MY GOSH I FEEL SO LITERATURE NOW.

But yeah this is greatly disturbing I'm going to have nightmares.. D:

 

Oyasumi! ^^

Biostatistics..

To me, one of the worst kinds of lectures you can get, is a lecture on mathematics :/

Deshou? XD

I mean, its good because I'm getting explanations on how these biostatistics work but I can't get myself to stay alert D:
Maybe because I got about 6hrs sleep.... but that should be enough! D:

Oh I'm in biostats class now btw heehee I'm recording lecture cause I feel tired now.. might miss out on important tips and since I'm already sleepy I might as well do other stuff... like blogging ;D

I watched Body of Proof Season 2 last night because my sister follows it now and it distracted me XD
Last night's episode was on a bacterial outbreak of biosafety level FOUR and was found to be bioterrorism because a guy felt that the world is over populated and thought that more people should die... :/

The costumes and makeup were good in showing the bloody mouth foam, etc. The main character also has a very cool and strong character that reminds me of a more pro version of my dad hehs. Good show overall! For those CSI or Bones or Castle lovers ;D

P.S: what's with that image above..?
ITS ONE OF MY FAV GAMES NOW <3
Kay bye ((:

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Slumping into the Shadows.

I try not to think about it. But how can it be possible when I witness it time and again?

Its obvious I don't have great vocals compared to many people, cause the amount of true support I receive from family, friends and strangers are at a low.

The one that hits me the hardest is family. Be it distant aunties or grandaunties and uncles and whoever. Its like no matter how much I try to show myself, nothing happens.

Well, I guess it can't be helped since I don't have talent. So all I can do is to feel sad and move on in life. Afterall, singing is the only thing that I can pull out of my pocket whenever I'm feeling all alone.

Its an important refuge.

I'll forever be slumped in people's shadows.

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And School Has Started.

 

Hi!
So yeah since now I have no Twitter (I deleted my account)..

I had these urges to type what I was doing or what I was thinking and stuff..

But I have no Twitter and FB didn't seem suitable to type YT related stuff because my family all have me as friends..

So I have curbed my urge HEEHEEHEE >:D

 

ACHIEVEMENT UNLOCKED!

 

Okay anyways.. :P

I've been see-ing Japanese VOCALOID songs with English translations..

And some sound really really awkward at certain areas..

So Im gonna try making my own set of English lyrics for "Shiwa" aka "Wrinkles" cause I really really love this song.

Of course with reference to the English translations already available cause my Japanese is not of good standard.

hahaha! :P

 

The title may sound silly or weird to some but it' a really meaningful song.

The only song that makes me feel like crying everytime I hear it. :/

And I have no idea why..

 

Okay anyways..

Another problem of mine that has been with me for a LONG time..

I always find lots of songs I wanna cover, but never get around to covering them, then either give up on them or get to them like months later =o =

 

Some on my list are~

**means top priority~!

 

- Shiwa by GUMI [High notes..]

 

- Bouquet [Starlight kun introduced it to me a while back] [High notes..]

 

- Answer by Luka [Hopefully for DSchorus audition]

 

- Sakura Kiss Eng Vers [OHSHC Opening!] [Easiest to cover (:]

 

- Interviewer by Luka, 96neko inspired!**

 

- Ama no Jaku piano **

 

- Rain stops, Good bye by Miku

 

- Kocchi Muite Baby by Miku [High notes..]

 

- Perfect Day by Supercell's Nagi

 

- HATSUKOI GAKUEN!! Anyone wanna sing as Len or GUMI with me? :3

 

Yeah I have somemore but arghhhhhh..

I have my Animal Welfare and Behaviour worksheet between me and my lappy..

It's half-done..

Im going to sleep sighs..

Nights!

Life updating.

Those pictures above are a couple of my major fail maple randomized looks XD

Hi people (:
So I got knocked down again.
And it was painful like other times.
At least I think it was.
Cause I'm starting to feel numb.. maybe? (:

Parents ask me why. Ask me to say what I'm thinking of. Assume things cause I don't say anything.
But the truth is that I really don't know. XD

And sadly it makes them worry too..
Shinpai shinai de. I wanna say that to them.. but sometimes their words hurt too(I can't rmr why).. even as they're trying to "pry" me open.. cause there's really nothing to dig out.. is there..?

I just did a whole load of blog shopping D: if only I had the money to do the kind of shopping I do.. I NEED TO WORK D: I'm such a lazy bum oh dear.. Kay nights!

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CLICK HERE!

CLICKCLICKCLICK

YAYYYYY

Otome Ge-mu!

Hi hi!!
I'm feeling really excited and happy
Cause I started on the creation of my own short and simple two ending otome game!

I'm just being overly aspriring now and trying this out even though I don't even know how to use Audacity nor know the HTMLs used for blog writing and stuff.. o.o

However, making my own visual novel is possible due to the very reliable quick start manual provided! I also need to make myself sit there and read thoroughly in order to not miss out any small details (which I did.. and made me go crazy for a bit.. :P)

Now I've started making the game with just dialogue, no images or music yet as I've yet to have them ready >.<

Also, I'll need to plan out the rest of the story line before I can continue scripting the game smoothly

Btw scripting in this case isn't just writing out the story line, it includes code and instructions to allow for transitions and change of images or music and when what comes next. The most complicated part is to create the options to select during the game itself, that determine the outcome of your game. :DD

YAYYYY KAY BYE!

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WorkWorkWork!

First day of work today~ Let the training begin!

So its my first time actually being surrounded by no one else other than working adults on the train and walking to Flor Patisserie @ Duxton Hill..

But the walk amongst all these ranges of shabby to classy shop houses is kind of interesting heehee :D Cause I hardly come to these areas.. Almost never actually..

Oh and I see either shaggy clothed people pushing stuff, the usual commoners and workers or those dressed like they're going for a fashion show pshht XD

JUST BE FRIEEEENDS~! just played finish HAHAHA oh goodness I need a toilet AHHHHHH but I question the availability of one around here..

AND I NEED A SCREEN CLEANER MY SCREEN GETS MY FINGERPRINTS AND I NEED TO CLEAN IT D:

I saw a B*RS one last time BUT I DIDNT BUY IT AND NOW I CANT FIND IT AHHHH DD: yes I'm typing I'm caps cause I'm nervous for work and I have energy and I'm alone now HAHAHAHAHA XD I arrived more than an hour early cause I overestimated travelling time by a lot.. >.< kk I shall go and stone and WAIT OMG I JUST READ FINISH OURAN HIGH SCHOOL HOST CLUB AND IT WAS BEAUTIFUL. SERIOUS. Tamaki is so princely and Haruhi is just so cute with him (not tsundere cute, which happens too much so phew) even though she's tomboyish in looks but is amazing in telling people's problems :'DD

Kk I shall go byeeeeee~

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Confusion

When you quarrel with each other, I feel troubled.
When you laugh with each other, I feel angry.

I should've known. The impending storm that followed when the door of the bedroom I was in got closed. But I didn't take it as something significant and continued reading my manga.

Then, I heard louder voices. Haizz. I was expecting this already anyways.

Confrontation.

So I knew better than to step out and find myself stuck in their situation HAHAHA! What a genius~ -Tamaki'sDreamyPose-

Thus, I had myself a fun time of survival in the bedroom where I couldn't pee. Thankfully, I had a small supply of food and a bottle of water plus my phone and a deflating basketball to entertain myself HAHAHA XD

Anyways.
I guess its saddening and troubling and FRUSTRATING to be a witness of such scenes of a heart breaking and crying and pleading and depression. I also wonder why you DONT see anything wrong in what you did! Instead, you bring God and the devil in, to say that the devil led her to check on you to cause trouble? I mean hello? More like he tempted YOU to repeat your mistakes that resulted in you being guilty from the check right?

And it angers me when you two laugh tgt. It feels.. So fake. So hypocritical. So non-existent. Also, it makes me angry at how you have to stand such intolerant behaviour. I guess we're all very forgiving creatures, just in different aspects.

I can NEVER feel that same peace and happiness again with two of you. NEVER. NEVER OKAY?! Its impossible. But I can never say it to you two as well. This entire chunk. I can never ever say it out to you two. Cause if I do, I'll hate myself. I'll hate myself for sounding so awful. And I'll leave you two while I'm drowning in shame of my unfilial actions.

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Trip! Trip! Trip!

Now I'm with my family bowling at west wood bowling alley :DD And the remix of Titanium is playing! I don't get how lots of people find that its too high to reach ._. But each person's vocal range does differ and mine sucks.. I wanna sound like a cute angel but no I can't..

ANYWAYS~

tomorrow is the trip to NANAS! Noah's Ark Natural Animal Sanctuary located in Malaysia~! I forgot its exact location heehee v(^~^)v

Excited to visit the mangroves(Grew close to them since sec2's CIP :D) and shop for food and most of all, help create a better shelter for the animals in NANAS!! Luckily I've been trained to stand awful smelling stuff from washing buddy's potty........ XD

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Brunch~!

Sad how I see local celebrities like Naomi Neo having to control the wat she posts her blog entries while we can just blog anyway we want whoohoo! XD

Breakfast in the making~ Will upload final pic on instagram XD

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Alone and Useless

In this quiet night with the sounds of insects chirping behind, negative feelings beat me down. My head feels heavy, like its being pulled back.

Ohmygosh suddenly felt really drowsy and heavy. So I have started standing instead of sitting but its still there. Bus coming in minutes urghhhh and I just missed one before. Alone. Feeling cold yet hot oh gosh. Bus come quickly please. Please come quickly..

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Repeats

I thought you wouldn't do this again.

I am now on bus 173 to clementi interchange, where I will then take an MRT to Tampines~ :D

What for you ask? For my classmate, Cheryl's bday chalet~! I like chalets :D

I wanna stay throughout, but I'm worried about home, so I'm just staying for one night to compromise to my want and my need to.

Oh! Just passed by my old school's temporary building when I was in primary 3&4 :DD Memories~

So yeah, I thought things were going pretty well around me other than myself, until this had to happen.

Seriously, you being a man, can you please make up your mind and stick with it? Don't choose smth yet go off track again like that. You give ppl false hope and then hurt them.

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Many Faces

I don't even know what my true self is like anymore.

For quite awhile, I've been puzzled as to why I can be quiet and shy at times, before drastically changing to become loud and tomboyish, without actually trying to fake it.
It's as if, I had no problem being either one at those points in time.

Realizing this is really very scary. To me. It's like I'm a freak or something. So I keep pondering about it every time I'm reminded of my situation.

I guess, it's because I've come to discover and learn of so many personalities where each one receives different kinds of responses from various people.
For example, when I knew of personality 1, I liked the kinds of responses they got and learnt to be like them. Then when I got to know of personality 2, I also tried to pick it up. I guess that's how I gradually made myself into a complete mess of personality mash ups.

And now, I'll never find that someone who loves me for who I truly am, cause the question still remains - who am I truly?

Besides being a child of God, or a See family member or something, I don't know what my inner being is anymore. So if I seem bipolar or quadripolar, please forgive me. Best is to inform me kindly ((:

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Hi hi! ^^

Now playing is my most recent y'know.. :D

Initially, I had asked JJ to help me mix~

But due to Prelims and problems with Audition, it was difficult for her >.<

So I asked Sean to help instead :D

And he mixed it great!!

If I had mixed it, the cover would've ended up super soft and noisy :/

But yeah everything else aside..

I wish I had a cuter soothing voice, then it would've sounded better as well..

But if the Lord has blessed me with this voice of mine, I shall take it and ganbatte!! >///<

There's bowling league later whoohoo!

League is a sort of long-term competition and this one spans across 8 months..?

Takes place every Tuesday night starting @8pm till whatever time each team finishes bowling their games :D

We win based on a point system, so you "battle" a different team every week to earn as many points out of 20.

Eg: 10-10, 15-5, 3-17, etc~

Now we're pretty low in ranks.. BUT WE'LL CATCH UP HAHAHAHA WATCH OUT YOU PPL >:D

Our team consists of See family members:

Mah grandparents, mah parents, mah sis and mah 2 uncles :DD

KAYKAY ABRUPT BYE! :D

All I wanna say is that..

My next goal is..

To be able to have a Q&A video :'D

It looks so fun!

I've seen people doing really good ones with funny questions and quirky answers!

But I've also seen those where it's almost as if they are talking to themselves..

Like the kinds of questions they answer are so bare and minimal and stuff XD

But yeah, reach up for the sun! ((:

So hai~!
I was studying my microbiology till about 9pm?

Then I started slacking.. DD:

I'm waiting for dear JJ to finish mixing my Sweets Parade cover!

Meanwhile, I watched DeeKosh's new video

SINGAPORE STYLE!
A lovely fun filled parody of OPPA GANGNAM STYLE!

And Naomi Neo was in it!

She. Is the epitomy of cute+pretty.

Her huge eyes and cute buck teeth and everything!

I can't believe she's just 16 ._.

Even up till now, make up still feels foreign to me even though I did put some on before ._.

And I'm afraid of contact lenses even though I wanna try them ._.

But anyways, I went on a camwhore spree..

Please only look if you don't mind..

*JYANG JYANG!*

 

 

Sorry I-I don't really know camwhore poses..

And I don't intend to do much..

AND I'M IN HOME CLOTHES HAHAHAHAHA XD

So ya BYE! :D